Another positive that came out of 2013 was letting go of a stigma and helping myself out of a dangerous hole.
I've already said several times that taking medication for my depression was a good decision. I cannot believe how much it has helped me. I can get out of negative circular thinking more quickly than without it. I don't burst into tears nearly as often as I was before I started the meds. My house is a little neater. I have more energy and am not just going to bed regularly at 9:00 to escape dark thoughts.
I had been worried that my emotions would flatten out completely. That hasn't been the case; I can still feel joy and sadness.
I had been worried that my libido would be crushed. That hasn't been the case, thankfully.
Things aren't perfect. I'm still crabby at work, but there are complicated dynamics in place which cause me to shield myself. I feel a little better able to handle those issues than I did before taking an anti-depressant, though.
Most importantly, I no longer want to kill myself.
For that, I will live to see 2014.
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